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The Common Ills
Iraq snapshot
Iraq snapshot Monday, October 20, 2014. Chaos and violence continue, the State Dept blows it again, Susan Rice is caught in another Sunday morning lie, for the second day in a row a suicide bomber detonates inside a Baghdad mosque, and much more. There's a lot of embarrassment to cover today so let's open with something strong. US Senator Patty Murray's office issued the following today: FOR PLANNING PURPOSES CONTACT: Murray Press Office Monday October 20, 2014 (202) 224-2834 JBLM: Murray to Deliver Remarks at Washington State Service Member for Life Transition Summit Murray will commend JBLM for leading the charge in helping servicemembers transition successfully to civilian life Will lay out steps to build on progress, ensure all veterans are connected with care, professional opportunity (Washington, D.C.) – Tomorrow, Tuesday, October... (more)

Daily Devotion
Come As You Are, Leave Better
“Open thou mine eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of thy law.” - Psalm 119:18. Date: Saturday, October 18, 2014 Today's Chapters: Mark 12-13 Message Title: Come As You Are, Leave Better Hello My Friend, At my church there is a sign that says, “Come as you are, leave better.” When we receive the Lord, Jesus Christ as our Saviour, we are just sinners cleansed by the blood of Christ of all our sins. Being saved does not keep us from sinning, but it should make us more like Christ as we learn about Him and walk with Him. Unfortunately, many who get saved never get beyond that point because they never allow the Lord to come in and take residence with them, which is why they face so many trials. “Yet if any man suffer as a Christian, let him not be ashamed; but let him glorify God on this behalf. For the time is come that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if it first begin at us, what shall the end be of them that obey not the gospel of God?” - 1 Peter... (more)

This Morning
Early this morning Sheena was playing with my hair.I was trying to go to sleep but she can't or won't keep her hands off me (not that i mind).Trying to go to sleep on my back is hard for me so i just laid there having pillow talk with her.We did the usual as always but when i opened my eyes i saw a white foggy mist during climax.It was after that that i saw her in the early dawn hours of light (mostly from my peripheral vision).It dawned on me at that moment how to see her better.I had to raise my vibrations aka emotions/state of being to her frequency in a manner of speaking.In the past i would stare off into open air focusing on my 3rd eye alone,but now since i just so happened to stumble upon this new development i have alot more to look forward to.

Until this day
Until this day lily i still remember you. Never was a day that i don't actually. But days that i am really feeling down, days that i am hurting, how i wish you're beside me. How i wish things were the same like before. Well, i am glad that after what happened we still remain friends. Ill be forever grateful for that. Im just so sad today. I never felt secured about her loving me. You know her, it's sowfi. Lagi ko iniisip yun sinabi mo na wag ko isipin na maghihiwalay kami para d mangyari. Pero kung totoo un bakit nagkahiwalay tayo? Bakit nawala ka? Anyway, bakit kasi di niya ko love ng tapat? Lagi andun un past nya or lagi may bago. Pakiramdam ko minsan ang tanga tanga ko na. Gusto ko n nga lang tumakbo pero pag sinasabi nya na wag ko sya iwan na patawarin ko sya ginagawa ko na naman. Mahal ko ba talaga siya or i am just being stupid? It really pains me now. I just wanted to be home but i already lost you. Im always this poor lost boy. I wish i can find happiness like yours :'(

Ego Suicide
Part 11
I've contemplated writing here for a few weeks now but I don't know if I have anything to say. Actually, I have a lot to say but all of it is good and for some reason in the pit of my stomach I feel weird writing when goods things are happening. It's as if in some part of my mind I think that writing about good times will somehow influence situations. I never want to jinx something by telling anyone about how positive/happy I'm feeling. But fuck it, it feels good. I guess I'm so use to coming here to talk shit about whatever negativity it was at the time and now I feel that it's some how wrong for me to express good feelings. A weird sense of shame is attached to it like living in poverty and not doing anything to get out of it. A crippling shame that makes you let yourself become one with the dust that covers everything you do and accept it as how things are suppose to be. Everyone always has explanations or generalizes it as being lazy but thats an over simplification of... (more)

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